Ok, so after spending the last hour and a half in your archive, it's official...I think you have the most amazing tumblr ever.
I love every single quote you have ever posted (and I added dozens to my drafts despite the fact that I've probably posted them from you before). Your photos are stunning, and your blog is just absolute beautiful perfection.
I am so grateful to have your blog here as a constant reminder that I am not the only one who lives in a constant struggle. Thank you Rachel for being so amazing <333
Brandy this was SO nice to get I can’t even tell you, and I know exactly what you mean, the main reason I even have a Tumblr is having people who are going through similar situations as me, knowing I always have someone to talk to (especially you since we’re both always up at absurd hours of the night! haha)
But seriously thank you so much for this, I am SO glad I fond your blog.
if you were to get a tattoo what would it be of and where would it be???!
hahaha amidst all the eclipse talk this was so random it made me smile!
I would get (very very very tiny!) on the inside of my wrist, this:
גם זה יעבור
In means in Hebrew, "This too shall pass."
The reason for my wrist, is that I used to cut, and to have it there would remind myself, that was a permanent solution to a temporary problem. To tell myself to go to sleep, and perhaps, things will be looking more hopeful in the morning. And you know, maybe they won’t. But to know that in time, the pain or loneliness I feel, will pass.
I had this idea that in order to be happy, I’d have to make huge and dramatic changes in my life, and that was so daunting to me. But what I learned was, it only takes a small change. Because that small change creates a just a little light, and as you might know, that can mean absolutely everything.
I organize my posts in an almost obsessive-compulsive manner. I plan them out in my Queue, sometimes for days, and when I can’t find a picture to go perfectly with a quote, or two pictures just don’t seem to flow well together, I will search through flickr for hours until I can find something that fits. The beautiful thing is that somehow, it always ends up fitting together like a puzzle.
Scroll through any couple pages of my blog in a row and you’ll (probably) see what I mean. Quotes flow into pictures and pictures flow back into quotes. They tell a story, which feels a lot like my story. And so, by immersing yourself amidst the pages of my blog, you are in essence coming to know quite a bit about me.
So to the beautiful stranger, reading this now, thank you for your patience, your gentle eyes, your understanding, and your support. Here, we are not alone.
“I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited.”— Sylvia Plath
“Maybe I’m dreaming you. Maybe you’re dreaming me; maybe we only exist in each other’s dreams and every morning when we wake up we forget all about each other.”— Audrey Niffenegger (The Time Traveler’s Wife)
“This pain, this dying, this is just normal. This is how life is. In fact, I realize, there never was an earthquake. Life is just this way, broken, and I am crazy for dreaming of something else.”—Miranda July (No One Belongs Here More Than You)